if you were a wink

i'd be a nod.
if you were a seed.
well, i'd be a pod.




bad. not good. trouble.
we hung out again last night.
the sex was even better this time.

and he's doing everything right.
and being what i want him to be.

he just picked a bad time to do it.

i decided i need to hang out with leroy, asap.
hopefully this weekend.
i need a fucking reality check.

the title of this blog has never been so apt.

i'm seeing him again. i don't really know what's going on.

we went out on tuesday. he picked me up, we went to a bar. he paid for everything as if it was just assumed. which was nice.

we had sex. and it was actually really really good.

he called me last night. to tell me that he really enjoyed the other night and that we should go out again. and "just to check in."
and i'm pretty much reeling.

i also met this other dude. on internets. we'll call him leroy because it's funny and not at all representative of anything. we haven't hung out yet. but he's so amazing. and i've decided that i absolutely have to date him. him being leroy. i've been entirely too wrapped up in my other him for entirely too long.

i forget what kissing someone else is like.
that's not good.